Finding Inspiration

Thanks to a great find of http://exhotgirl.blogspot.com I've been totally inspired to keep this blog going and update my progress daily! This blog she writes is awesome. It's not pretentious or overly deep, it's just honest and more "real life" than most things published. Thanks a lot exhotgirl, I'm not even caught up yet but you should know I'm following in your footsteps because you're setting a great example of how to follow through and make your goals a reality!

I've never been good at keeping a Diary. I've always wanted to, found the idea appealing like there really is a record of my life. I start, write for a few evenings and then put it down after 3 days of entries. I go on with my life and then about six months later I pick up the diary, read the last few entries and realize I'm still facing the same issues I wrote about last time. Perhaps writing here will help me stay focused and actually keep up entries knowing that someone else might be reading. That's the hope anyway. I'll need to start by finding a voice. Am I writing to myself or am I writing to the masses? Perhaps I'm writing to my better self, or to a reader who has a genuine concern for my issues? I think I'll be writing as myself to anyone who cares to listen. The goal is to be honest with myself and finally find a way to hold myself accountable to my goals.

I always write ToDo lists and never do anything with them. This is irritating and kind of soul destroying when I find my lists repeating time after time the same actions that are never taken. I often write vague instructions like "lose weight" haha, yeah really helpful! I do have quite a few things I'll need to do in the coming week to be as prepared as possible for my quit date of the 23rd of October 2009. I think I'll write a ToDo list that's short and to the point, with specific action items that I can accomplish.