Congratulations are in order!

Well, I've made it through day 3.  At least I will have when I go to bed in an hour or so.  Going to bed early is helpful and I'm terrible at it so I figure 9:00 is probably a good time.

I did well today.  Deffinitely had a few trying moments this morning when I was just pretty irritable with everyone around me.  Not so bad though that I couldn't keep myself together.  Had a few craves to smoke this afternoon, a few thoughts of "just one", but I was fairly easily able to just change my thoughts to something else.

Only broke down in tears once, I think that's pretty good really!  When I think about how I'm going to manage the future without smoking is when I start to go downhill.  If I can just keep my thoughts focused on the moment I do really well.

The reason the future scares me is because in the past when I've quit (once for 3 months, once for 6 weeks) I usually go through a pretty hard core depressive stage.  Quitting smoking sort of opens me up and makes me evaluate my life.  NG, NG! ha, Not Good!  It's just that I then have to face the fact that I'm out of shape, single and boring. 

It's important that I remember that my number one goal is to be a non-smoker, however I am going to HAVE to take steps to better these other areas of my life as it's all part of the process.  Loving myself is how I'm going to make positive changes, and making positive changes is going to allow me to love myself.  Vicious cycle?  I dunno I think there's another way to look at it.  It's not that it's a vicious cycle, it's more that the two go hand in hand.  So I need to be happy with small improvemnts, not get too upset with setbacks and just keep my priorites straight.  Ask myself if the choice I'm making is going to help move me towards my goals.

Today my only goal is to not smoke, so far so good!  Tomorrow my goal is to not smoke and cook myself some dinner.  Easy yeah?

Proud of me!